Baby James Kidson

2008 - 2008
LocationKettering
Age0
Date of Birth7/2008
Date of Death7/2008
Visitors4,406 since 15/08/2008
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When we found out i was pregnant we were so excited we had been trying a while. We made so many
plans & we had his room done by april. We were just too excited ,so we spent the next few mounths
filling his draws and finding toys that mached his room. Every thing was just so perfect.
All through june my ankles,hands and face were swelling, but was told i was fine and not to worry as
it`s because of the weather and this happens when your pregnant. They got bigger and bigger and on
2nd July i decided to phone the hospital. They told me to come in so i could be monitored .
Baby james was fine & kicking away. He really didn't think much to being monitored. On Friday 4th i
went to see my consultant because i had a bad back & broken cocsix. They were thinking of bringing
him early because of this and at that appointment they found a small trace of protien in my urine. I
also had a very slight constant headache so they thought with my swelling and other symptons they
would keep me in with suspected pre-eclampsia. When i got to the ward my blood pressure was high and
my urine still had a trace but baby james was fine.
As the day went on it all went back to normal and they said i could go home but come back twice a
week for check ups. Then on sun the 6th about 9pm i thought i was in the early stages of labour this
being my 1st so went to bed because it was not too bad and felt abit like period pains. I woke up at
4:15am with the worst pain and was being very sick.
We arrived at hospital at 5am and i was constantly in an awfull lot of pain. After checking for
Baby James` heartbeat they could not find one, so they rang for a doctor and bought in a scan
machine so we started to panic. The doctor did not say alot and he wanted to get a second opinion,
they then told us our baby had died and i screamed and told him he was lying and he had to keep
checking but he would'nt. They moved us to another room because they needed to do tests and i still
didn't belive them, so they got a consultant to do another scan to confirm it.
I still belived he would be fine i could still feel him moving ,but we now know it was just my
waters.
My mum and dad arrived to support me and my husband. I was in natural labour but there was no
pattern to the contractions, just constant pain. As the day progressed i got alot worse, i was very
poorly so they broke my waters and were expecting to see blood from an abruption but it was fine so
they still did not know why i was so poorly.
It was very strange, i still belived our baby was fine.
It was a long day lots of crying and fear how could we have our baby and not take him home. I
carried on deteriorating so they helped me along with my labour, Then the pain really was unbearable
they gave me an epidural and i had lost all my colour they started to worry.i was in and out of
consciousness and had 15 consultants,midwives and doctors who were trying to help.
By 7pm my blood pressure had dropped to 66/32 and they couldnt work out why. At 8pm baby James was
born asleep and taken out of the room to be cleaned up. Shortly after, the placenter came out
quickly followed by 4litres / 70% of my blood. At that point the consultants said that they now knew
why i had been so ill, i had had a concealed abruption. Very quickly i started to recover as they
gave me 4 blood transfusions and other fluids.
1 hour later a mid wife was stood in the middle of the room with our sleeping baby i was so scared
of my feelings. I held him and have never felt so proud in all my life hes just like his daddy so we
named him after him. We had a mixture of feelings, sad, happy & scared all at the same time. Later
on that night i took another short turn for the worse so they converted the room into a high
depenency unit just for us and had a midwife stay in the same room to make sure that my health didnt
take another turn for the worse. I had tubes and wires comming out of me so that they could closly
monitor me.
We slept with him in between us all night but didnt get more than 30mins sleep as we had the most
beautiful baby boy between us.
We had the hole next day with him and our famlies. In the morning we gave him a wash and changed his
clothes. Later on that day he had his blessing, got his foot and hand prints done and spent the best
time of my life with him.
We have over 300 photos of him (proud mummy and daddy) and saying good bye to him was the hardest
thing we have ever had to do but we couldn't keep him with us foever like we had longed to do.
Everything feels so wrong with out him and we miss him so much how could this happen. We will always
love our little prince and cherish the time we spent with him.









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Your memory we treasure,
Loving you always,
Forgetting you never.
FOR WEDNESDAY

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No farewell words were spoken,
No time to say goodbye,
You were gone before we knew it,
And only God can tell us why.

FOR THURSDAY

Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela Christopher’s Very Proud Mum

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Marie-Angela Rowe June 8, 2009

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SWEETDREAMS ANGEL ALL MY LOVE ALWAYS VICTORIA XXX

Victoria Dodson And John Nestor (Friend) June 6, 2009

GOD BLESS SWEET ANGEL JAMES.

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NIGHT,NIGHT SWEETHEART.X

Victoria Dodson And John Nestor (Friend) May 31, 2009

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xx** sweetdreams sending you all my love & hugs **xx

Victoria Dodson And John Nestor (Friend) May 28, 2009

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I'm just a little Angel
Sent from up above
To help guide you and protect you
And give you lots of love.
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On those days when you feel lonely
Kinda sad and blue
You'll feel my little Angel wings
Tenderly enfolding you.
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I'm just a little Angel
Come down from Heaven above
Who will always and forever
Give you my "Bestest" Angel Hugs.
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Lights of Love

Can you see our candles
Burning in the night?
Lights of love we send you
Rays of purest white

Children we remember
Though missing from our sight
In honour and remembrance
We light candles in the night

All across the big blue marble
Spinning out in space
Can you see the candles burning
From this human place?

Oh, angels gone before us
Who taught us perfect love
This night the world lights candles
That you may see them from above

Tonight the globe is lit by love
Of those who know great sorrow,
But as we remember our yesterdays
Let's light one candle for tomorrow


IF HEAVEN HAD A PHONE

I cannot dial your number,
I can't get through to you,
I called the operator,
She did all that she could do.

There is no code for heaven,
I cannot place the call,
No numbers left to call,
I reckon I've tried them all.

If heaven had a phone,
I'd ring you every day,
If heaven had a phone,
There's things I want to say.

To tell you that I love you,
And miss you every day,
How much I prayed to god,
That he could let you stay.

If heaven had a phone,
I'd ring you every day,
If heaven had a phone,
I'd hear your voice, know you're okay,

I just want to speak to heaven,
Please do you have a direct line,
Operator says no number,
But your loved one says they’re doing fine.


Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela Christopher’s Very Proud Mum
For Friday

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Marie-Angela Rowe May 14, 2009

Tribute for this weekend

Candles will be lit on
Sunday For Monday

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A FOUR LEAF CLOVER

A four leaf clover
A treasure priceless and rare
Like my child in heaven above
Now in gods tender loving care.

Each leaf a meaning a part of my grief
One leaf for strength
One for memories so dear
One leaf for peace
And one for my faith in god above.

Each represents a part of my life
My child in heaven
Forever missed and forever loved.

The first leaf on the clover
Stands for strength
To make it through the day
From morning to night darkness to light
With gods help each step of the way.

The second leaf on the clover
Stands for peace
That only god can bring
A peace that restores my mourning heart
Smoothes the edges of pain
And help me learn to live again.

The third leaf on the clover
Stands for memories
That I hold dear
Their spirit will shine on
In the memories left behind
Although time may pass
They will never disappear.

The fourth leaf on the clover
Stands for faith in god above
Believing with all my heart
In what I cannot see
Knowing we will meet again
By the golden gates in heaven above.

Until then I’ll Keep my memories
Tucked deep inside with love
Along with my four leaf clover
My treasures from heaven above.

A clover A treasure Blessings
From above strength peace
Memories and faith
All sent from heaven with gods everlasting love.

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The Mention Of Your Name

Do you make them laugh up their,
Does your smile bring them good cheer?
Do you make the sun shine brighter,
Like you did when you were here?

The very mention of your name,
The memories of your smile,
The little things you said and did,
Are with us all the while.

You meant so very much to us,
There’s nothing left to say,
Except that without you here
There is no perfect day.

For no one knows the heartache,
That lies behind our smiles,
No one knows how many times
We have broken down & cried.

We want to tell you something
So there wont be any doubt,
You're so wonderful to think of,
But so hard to be without...


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Sweet Memories

I never meant to leave you
Could I have only stayed
We would be going on in life
With all the plans we made

Now all the hopes and dreams we shared
Are but sweet memories
For you to tuck inside your heart
Now when you remember me

Remember all the good times
And all the joy we shared
Remember how you touched my life
And how I really cared

Think back on all the laughter
And wipe away the tears
You have still many miles to go
And still have many years

Don't look back, look forward
This day is a brand new start
And as you travel on in life
You'll take a bit of my heart

I never meant to leave you
But still you'll not be alone
For as long as my love lives in you
I'll never really be gone


Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela X Christopher’s Very Proud Mum
For Friday
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Marie-Angela Rowe May 7, 2009

Tribute For This Weekend

Candles Will Be Lit On Sunday For Monday

My Very Special Mum

My Mum is a survivor,
Or so I've heard it said.
But I can hear her crying at night,
When all others are in bed.

I watch her lay awake at night,
And go to hold her hand.
She doesn't know I'm with her,
To help her understand.

But like the sands on the beach,
That never wash away...
I watch over my surviving Mum,
Who thinks of me each day.

She wears a smile for others...
A smile of disguise!
But through Heaven's door I see,
Tears flowing from her eyes.

My Mum tries to cope with death,
To keep my memory alive.
But anyone who knows her knows,
It is her way to survive.

As I watch over my surviving Mum,
Through Heaven's open door...
I try to tell her that angels,
Protect me forevermore.

I know that doesn't help her...
Or ease the burden she bears.
So if you get a chance, go visit her...
And show her that you care.

For no matter what she says...
No matter what she feels,
My surviving Mum has a broken heart,
That time won't ever heal.

Dad’s Cry Too….

I cannot ease your aching heart Dad,
Nor take your pain away;
But let me stay and take your hand
And walk with you today.

I'll listen when you need to talk Dad,
I'll wipe away your tears;
I'll share your worries when they come,
I'll help you face your fears.

I'm here and I will stand by you Dad,
On each hill you have to climb;
So take my hand, let's face the world...
And live just one day at a time.

You're not alone, for I'm still here Dad,
I'll go that extra mile;
And when your grief is easier,
I'll help you learn to smile


An Angel From Heaven

God sent me an angel from heaven above
It's filled with complete unconditional love
It watches and follows wherever I go
If I'm happy or sad this little angel does know

It climbs upon my lap and wipes away all my tears
One look in those eyes wipes away all my fears
For in those soft gentle eyes there’s something I see
Which speaks to me silently 'you always have me'

As those soft gentle kisses bring a smile to my face
And a love in my heart which can't be replaced
It continues to tell me in it's own special way
Of how much it loves me as it begins to say

'At night I will cuddle by your side while you sleep
My life is to love you, this promise I keep
I'll wake you come morning with kisses galore
You'll giggle and laugh and ask me for more'

'When sadness you feel or life lets you down
I'll do whatever it takes to wipe off your frown
I'll show you some tricks, I'll bring you my toy
Or rest my head in your lap, if this brings you joy'

'If sickness should keep you in bed for the day
I'll stay right beside you, we don't have to play
And if going for walks is something you do
I'll be your companion take me with you'

I'll try hard to show you my love is so strong
I'll try only to please you, I'll try not to do wrong
If a mistake I should make, then I ask this of you
Remember that angels can make mistakes too'

'I'll ask not much of you, it's for love that I yearn
Because loves what god taught me to give in return
It's all unconditional and comes straight from the heart
And my promise I give you till death do us part'

'So this is my story one I wanted to share
Of my littlest angel who's always right there
This littlest angel that I'm so thankful of
Yes this littlest angel of unconditional love'


Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela Christopher’s Very Proud Mum

Marie-Angela Rowe April 30, 2009

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BIG Bedtime Kisses for you ~xx*XX*xx~

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