| Location | Kettering |
| Age | 0 |
| Date of Birth | 7/2008 |
| Date of Death | 7/2008 |
| Visitors | 4,407 since 15/08/2008 |
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When we found out i was pregnant we were so excited we had been trying a while. We made so many
plans & we had his room done by april. We were just too excited ,so we spent the next few mounths
filling his draws and finding toys that mached his room. Every thing was just so perfect.
All through june my ankles,hands and face were swelling, but was told i was fine and not to worry as
it`s because of the weather and this happens when your pregnant. They got bigger and bigger and on
2nd July i decided to phone the hospital. They told me to come in so i could be monitored .
Baby james was fine & kicking away. He really didn't think much to being monitored. On Friday 4th i
went to see my consultant because i had a bad back & broken cocsix. They were thinking of bringing
him early because of this and at that appointment they found a small trace of protien in my urine. I
also had a very slight constant headache so they thought with my swelling and other symptons they
would keep me in with suspected pre-eclampsia. When i got to the ward my blood pressure was high and
my urine still had a trace but baby james was fine.
As the day went on it all went back to normal and they said i could go home but come back twice a
week for check ups. Then on sun the 6th about 9pm i thought i was in the early stages of labour this
being my 1st so went to bed because it was not too bad and felt abit like period pains. I woke up at
4:15am with the worst pain and was being very sick.
We arrived at hospital at 5am and i was constantly in an awfull lot of pain. After checking for
Baby James` heartbeat they could not find one, so they rang for a doctor and bought in a scan
machine so we started to panic. The doctor did not say alot and he wanted to get a second opinion,
they then told us our baby had died and i screamed and told him he was lying and he had to keep
checking but he would'nt. They moved us to another room because they needed to do tests and i still
didn't belive them, so they got a consultant to do another scan to confirm it.
I still belived he would be fine i could still feel him moving ,but we now know it was just my
waters.
My mum and dad arrived to support me and my husband. I was in natural labour but there was no
pattern to the contractions, just constant pain. As the day progressed i got alot worse, i was very
poorly so they broke my waters and were expecting to see blood from an abruption but it was fine so
they still did not know why i was so poorly.
It was very strange, i still belived our baby was fine.
It was a long day lots of crying and fear how could we have our baby and not take him home. I
carried on deteriorating so they helped me along with my labour, Then the pain really was unbearable
they gave me an epidural and i had lost all my colour they started to worry.i was in and out of
consciousness and had 15 consultants,midwives and doctors who were trying to help.
By 7pm my blood pressure had dropped to 66/32 and they couldnt work out why. At 8pm baby James was
born asleep and taken out of the room to be cleaned up. Shortly after, the placenter came out
quickly followed by 4litres / 70% of my blood. At that point the consultants said that they now knew
why i had been so ill, i had had a concealed abruption. Very quickly i started to recover as they
gave me 4 blood transfusions and other fluids.
1 hour later a mid wife was stood in the middle of the room with our sleeping baby i was so scared
of my feelings. I held him and have never felt so proud in all my life hes just like his daddy so we
named him after him. We had a mixture of feelings, sad, happy & scared all at the same time. Later
on that night i took another short turn for the worse so they converted the room into a high
depenency unit just for us and had a midwife stay in the same room to make sure that my health didnt
take another turn for the worse. I had tubes and wires comming out of me so that they could closly
monitor me.
We slept with him in between us all night but didnt get more than 30mins sleep as we had the most
beautiful baby boy between us.
We had the hole next day with him and our famlies. In the morning we gave him a wash and changed his
clothes. Later on that day he had his blessing, got his foot and hand prints done and spent the best
time of my life with him.
We have over 300 photos of him (proud mummy and daddy) and saying good bye to him was the hardest
thing we have ever had to do but we couldn't keep him with us foever like we had longed to do.
Everything feels so wrong with out him and we miss him so much how could this happen. We will always
love our little prince and cherish the time we spent with him.
Nite nite angel xx
GOODNIGHT SWEETHEART...xXx
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Sending you a great big hug
with lots of love and kisses,
Love always april xx
Little angel xx
SENT WITH LOVE. XxXxX
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~ My heart is truly broken ~
~ My tears they fall like rain ~
~ I wish i could see you one more time ~
~ To ease this awful pain ~
~ I know that you're in heaven ~
~ And in heaven you shall remain ~
~ A very special angel ~
~ Until we meet again ~
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All my love april xx
Tribute For This Weekend
Candles Will Be Hit And Miss For A Few Weeks
My Father-in-Law is very ill in hospital,
I’m trying to light all my candles
Sometimes you will get 2 on one day
And none the next day I always put the day
They are for at the bottom of verse.
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MEMORIES
Our memories build a special bridge
When loved ones have to part
To help us feel we're with them still
And sooth a grieving heart.
Our memories span the years we shared,
Preserving ties that bind,
They build a special bridge of love
And bring us peace of mind.
MY CASTLE
Can you see my castle
Up here in the sky
Its got big gold gates
That sparkle in my eyes
Can you see my garden
It’s full of red flowers
And they smell beautiful
They hold magic powers
I have many new friends
That are all like me
They too are an angel
Flying high and free
They watch over family’s
That like me left behind
And send them angel kisses
They are friends hard to find
I’m glad I’m in heaven
And that I am at peace today
Yes I miss my family dear
But I had to go away
God picked me from many
And said that I’m one of the best
And I had completed my lives journey
And that I had past all the tests
So I deserve this castle
That god gave to me
And one day if your lucky
This castle you will see.
NATURE'S WONDERS
Have you ever wondered
what makes the wind blow?
Could it be our loved ones
blowing us a kiss?
Have you ever wondered
what makes the stars shine?
Is it our loved ones keeping watch
over us while we sleep?
Have you ever wondered
what makes the skies cry?
Could it be our
loved ones missing us?
Have you ever wondered
what makes the sun shine?
Is it our loved ones
giving us a warm hug?
Have you ever wondered
what makes the ocean waves
come pounding to shore?
Could it be our loved ones
wanting to touch us once more?
There are so many of natures wonders
and do we really know why?
Is there a higher power
making sure we always remember
The loved one we’ve lost
and shall never forget.
LIGHT A CANDLE
Light a candle for those we mourn.
Into a new life they will be born.
Do not look for them at the graveside.
They are somewhere else
radiating their beautiful light.
They have gone to a new world
where there is no darkness, no pain.
Their light and essence will always remain.
Light a candle for those who have left
this mortal place.
They are free to travel through time and space.
When we think of them, they are near.
When we sit in a beautiful garden.
Their voices we hear.
When we listen to a divine symphony,
We close our eyes, their faces we see.
Light a candle for they have not really gone.
With each flickering flame,
in your hearts they will always belong.
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A smile is cheer from you to me,
The cost is nothing its given for free.
They console the weary and gladden the sad.
And can make someone happy when they are mad.
Unlike blessings in which we pray
Its the only thing you keep when you give it away.
Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
For Friday
Happy Mothers Day
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Everyone on this site has lost someone very Special & Precious to them.
I would like to thank everyone that has left special little messages and photo’s for me On Mothers Day.
This is a very difficult day, for lots of GTS Friends. I really appreciate your kindness & thoughts.
Thanks Again From Christopher’s Very Proud Mum.
YOUR FRIENDSHIP’S A SPECIAL GIFT
GENEROUSLY GIVEN,
HAPPILY ACCEPTED, AND
DEEPLY APPRECIATED
Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
For Monday
What Makes A Mother?
I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked, "What makes a Mother?"
And I know I heard him say
A Mother has a baby
This we know is true
But, God, can you be a mother
When your baby's not with you?
Yes, you can he replied
With confidence in his voice
I give many women babies
When they leave it is not their choice
Some I send for a lifetime
And others for the day
And some I send to feel your womb
But there's no need to stay.
I just don't understand this God
I want my baby here
He took a breath
and cleared his throat
And then I saw a tear
I wish I could show you
What your child is doing Here
If you could see your child smile
With other children and say
"We go to earth to learn our lessons
of love and life and fear,
but My mommy loved me so much
I got to come straight here!"
I feel so lucky to have a Mom who had so much love for me
I learned my lessons very quickly
My Mommy set me free.
I miss my Mommy oh so much
But I visit her each day
When she goes to sleep
On her pillow is where I lay
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek
And whisper in her ear
"Mommy, Please don't be sad today
I'm your baby and I am here"
So you see my dear sweet one
Your children are okay
Your babies are here in My home
And this is where they'll stay
They'll wait for you with Me
Until your lessons there are through
And on the day that you come home
they'll be at the gates waiting for you
So now you see
What makes a Mother
It's the feeling in your heart
It's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start
Tribute For This Weekend
Candles Will Be Hit And Miss Next Week I Will Be Missing Christopher Even More This Weekend.
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A MOTHER'S DAY MESSAGE
Dear Mum,
Mother's day will soon be here,
Oh, Mum, I do miss you!
You've been on my mind all day today.
Just yesterday, I was out shopping,
Found myself looking at Mother's Day cards.
Then, bam, it all came back to me.
Mum, it's been so hard.
Many memories of you and me
Have been coming back, flooding my mind;
Every laugh, hug, and tear.
You truly were one of a kind.
Mum, I'll be sending you a message
This Mother's Day.
It will arrive on an angel's wing.
All my love flying straight to you,
Many smiles I hope it brings.
I want you to know
I haven't forgotton you.
Alive in my heart you'll always stay.
Know that my message is wrapped in much love,
And contains many hugs & kisses for you on this Mother's Day.
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"You Were Taken On Angel's Wings":
"You were taken on angel's wings
As you sweetly and quietly slept
And returned to heaven before we knew
That you had even left
Our hearts are heavy and sorrowed
That our time with you was so brief
For you were our gift of heaven's light
That is now replaced with grief
But not so much that we won't be grateful
For every second you were here
You filled our hearts with so much joy
Treasured memories we'll hold forever dear
And though we weren't blessed to see you grow up
We were blessed to see you smile
And hold you lovingly in our arms ..."
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"You Were The Pride Of Our Hearts":
"It's so difficult to let you go
Though death's left us no other choice
We're mourning the loss of never seeing you again
Of never hearing your precious voice
It seems that in life there are certain times
Which are more than "simply unfair"
When our hearts search out for better answers
But cannot seem to find them there
And such is the case at your passing
Contemplating the briefness of your life
All the great things that you still would have done
If you'd been granted a little more time
It isn't difficult to envision the possibilities
For look at what you'd already done
The difference you'd made in so many lives
In all that you had become
Perhaps you were simply too good for this life
So God called you back to Heaven
That your life needed no further testament
Than the goodness you'd already given
But regardless of the reason
For why you had to depart
We'll miss you every single day of our lives
For you were The Pride Of Our Hearts!
Thank you for being our example
Inspiring us through your courage and drive
We'll cherish all the precious memories
You lovingly created in our lives
Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
For Friday
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☆ A SHINING STAR ☆
When I had to leave you
I didn't go too far
Look up to the Heavens
Im a Brillant shining star
May this light show you
As it glistens from above
A very special thank~you
When you lifted me with love
A little star that brightly shines
A star thats free from pain
Held gently in God's loving arms
Until we meet again
As you go on your journey
Be the best that you can be
And know that God is there for you
As he is here for me
When we miss each other
And what each other near
You shine your light upon the earth
And I'll shine my light up here
So we will always remember
When we seem so far apart
To shine our lights together
With love upon our hearts
☆ Written by~Bonnie Lynn Morris ☆
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Thankyou very much for all your support, It means so much to me.
Lots of Love Always Kelly ~xx*X*xx~
Tribute For This Weekend
Candles Will Be Lit As Usual
On Sunday For Monday
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Special Day
We do not need a special day
To bring you to our minds.
The days we do not think of you
Are very hard to find.
Each morning when we awake
We know that you are gone.
And no one knows the heartache
As we try to carry on.
Our hearts still ache with sadness
And secret tears still flow.
What it meant to lose you
No one will ever know.
Our thoughts are always with you,
Your place no one can fill.
In life we loved you dearly;
In death we love you still.
There will always be a heartache,
And often a silent tear.
But always a precious memory
Of the days when you were here.
If tears would make a staircase,
And heartaches make a lane,
We'd walk the path to heaven
And bring you home again.
We hold you close within our hearts;
And there you will remain,
To walk with us throughout our lives
Until we meet again.
Our family chain is broken now,
And nothing seems the same,
But as God calls us one by one,
The chain will link again.
A Celebration
This day will be a celebration
Of the short time you were here.
You will always be remembered
With great love and many tears.
But to only feel pain and sorrow
Would not be fair to you.
Your life meant so much more to us,
More than words could say.
You were here so briefly,
I wonder if you knew
All the ways you’ve touched
Our world and our hearts
And everyone who knew you
Since the day God called you home.
Now my child, you’re an angel
With your heavenly Father above,
We see not only what we’ve lost
But our capacity of love.
There will always be a big void
In our life and a hole in our
Hearts that will never heal.
Our souls will grieve forever.
Will we forget or stop loving you?
No! Not now…not ever.
As this day is upon us,
Oh, how our hearts still hurt.
But even as I mourn your death,
We will always celebrate your birth.
It was the happiest day of our lives.
Although the curtain falls
There comes a time for all of us
When we must say goodbye
But memories of those we love
Live on and never die
Although the curtain falls at last
Is that a cause to grieve?
The future life is brighter still
If only we believe
So trust in God’s eternal care
And when the master calls
We’ll know a fairer world’s to come
Although the curtain falls
In Memory Of You
We want to always remember
The beautiful life you lived
And keep alive the memories we have
Through remembering what you did
For you're so special to all of us
A wonderful person indeed
Your love, laughter and warm smile
Reflected a heart that believed
Just in the everyday things we do
We remember your faith and love
In the words you spoke to help us through
Is a continued reminder for us
Although we miss you so very much
We know we'll see you once more
For this is the hope we have in God
Being re-united in the Lord
And as we gather we'll continue to share
Special times we went through
For these are memories that warm our hearts
As we honour the memory of you
Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
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GOODNIGHT SWEET ANGEL......
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