| Location | Kettering |
| Age | 0 |
| Date of Birth | 7/2008 |
| Date of Death | 7/2008 |
| Visitors | 4,404 since 15/08/2008 |
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When we found out i was pregnant we were so excited we had been trying a while. We made so many
plans & we had his room done by april. We were just too excited ,so we spent the next few mounths
filling his draws and finding toys that mached his room. Every thing was just so perfect.
All through june my ankles,hands and face were swelling, but was told i was fine and not to worry as
it`s because of the weather and this happens when your pregnant. They got bigger and bigger and on
2nd July i decided to phone the hospital. They told me to come in so i could be monitored .
Baby james was fine & kicking away. He really didn't think much to being monitored. On Friday 4th i
went to see my consultant because i had a bad back & broken cocsix. They were thinking of bringing
him early because of this and at that appointment they found a small trace of protien in my urine. I
also had a very slight constant headache so they thought with my swelling and other symptons they
would keep me in with suspected pre-eclampsia. When i got to the ward my blood pressure was high and
my urine still had a trace but baby james was fine.
As the day went on it all went back to normal and they said i could go home but come back twice a
week for check ups. Then on sun the 6th about 9pm i thought i was in the early stages of labour this
being my 1st so went to bed because it was not too bad and felt abit like period pains. I woke up at
4:15am with the worst pain and was being very sick.
We arrived at hospital at 5am and i was constantly in an awfull lot of pain. After checking for
Baby James` heartbeat they could not find one, so they rang for a doctor and bought in a scan
machine so we started to panic. The doctor did not say alot and he wanted to get a second opinion,
they then told us our baby had died and i screamed and told him he was lying and he had to keep
checking but he would'nt. They moved us to another room because they needed to do tests and i still
didn't belive them, so they got a consultant to do another scan to confirm it.
I still belived he would be fine i could still feel him moving ,but we now know it was just my
waters.
My mum and dad arrived to support me and my husband. I was in natural labour but there was no
pattern to the contractions, just constant pain. As the day progressed i got alot worse, i was very
poorly so they broke my waters and were expecting to see blood from an abruption but it was fine so
they still did not know why i was so poorly.
It was very strange, i still belived our baby was fine.
It was a long day lots of crying and fear how could we have our baby and not take him home. I
carried on deteriorating so they helped me along with my labour, Then the pain really was unbearable
they gave me an epidural and i had lost all my colour they started to worry.i was in and out of
consciousness and had 15 consultants,midwives and doctors who were trying to help.
By 7pm my blood pressure had dropped to 66/32 and they couldnt work out why. At 8pm baby James was
born asleep and taken out of the room to be cleaned up. Shortly after, the placenter came out
quickly followed by 4litres / 70% of my blood. At that point the consultants said that they now knew
why i had been so ill, i had had a concealed abruption. Very quickly i started to recover as they
gave me 4 blood transfusions and other fluids.
1 hour later a mid wife was stood in the middle of the room with our sleeping baby i was so scared
of my feelings. I held him and have never felt so proud in all my life hes just like his daddy so we
named him after him. We had a mixture of feelings, sad, happy & scared all at the same time. Later
on that night i took another short turn for the worse so they converted the room into a high
depenency unit just for us and had a midwife stay in the same room to make sure that my health didnt
take another turn for the worse. I had tubes and wires comming out of me so that they could closly
monitor me.
We slept with him in between us all night but didnt get more than 30mins sleep as we had the most
beautiful baby boy between us.
We had the hole next day with him and our famlies. In the morning we gave him a wash and changed his
clothes. Later on that day he had his blessing, got his foot and hand prints done and spent the best
time of my life with him.
We have over 300 photos of him (proud mummy and daddy) and saying good bye to him was the hardest
thing we have ever had to do but we couldn't keep him with us foever like we had longed to do.
Everything feels so wrong with out him and we miss him so much how could this happen. We will always
love our little prince and cherish the time we spent with him.
Daddy, please don't look so sad,
Mama please don't cry~
"Cause I am in the arms of Jesus
and He sings me lullabies."
Please, try not to question God,
Don't think he is unkind
Don't think He sent me to you,
and then He changed his mind.
You see, I am a special child,
and I'm needed up above
I'm the special gift you gave Him,
the product of your love.
I'll always be there with you
and watch the sky at night,
Find the brightest star that's gleaming,
That's my halo's brilliant light.
You'll see me in the morning frost,
that mists your window pane.
That's me in the summer showers,
I'll be dancing in the rain.
When you feel a little breeze,
from a gentle wind that blows
That's me, I'll be there,
planting a kiss on your nose.
When you see a child playing,
and your heart feels a little tug,
That's me, I'll be there,
giving your heart a hug.
So Daddy, please don't look so sad,
Mama don't you cry.
I'm in the arms of Jesus
and He sings me lullabies.
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SLEEP TIGHT LITTLE ANGEL
Love To You & Mummy Always Xx
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I would like to thank everyone for all
The Messages, Tributes Candles Gifts & Photo’s
You left for me on Christopher’s website
For My Birthday, they all made me smile
On a very difficult day.
I Love And Miss Him So Much,
You are all very caring lovely people
That really do understand how I was feeling...
Please call me Angela All My Friends & Family Do
Thanks again Angela X
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Hello sweet little angle hope you ok, you and our sweet little angle macie lou playing up their all my love to you and your family macie auntie carla xxxxxxxx
Tribute Is For This Weekend
Candles Might Not Be Lit Until Monday Next Week It's My Birthday On Saturday So I Will Be Missing Christopher Even More Than Usual... Bless Him X
Grief Is Like A River
My grief is like a river,
I have to let it flow,
But I myself determine
Just where the banks will go.
Some days the current takes me
In waves of guilt and pain,
But there are always quiet pools
Where I can rest again.
I crash on rocks of anger;
My faith seems faint indeed,
But there are other swimmers
Who know that what I need
Are loving hands to hold me
When the waters are too swift,
And someone kind to listen
When I just seem to drift.
Grief's river is a process
Of relinquishing the past.
By swimming in hope's channels,
I'll reach the shore at last.
If I Knew
If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
And pray the Lord, your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time
That I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
And call you back for one more.
If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
So I could play them back day after day.
If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
To stop and say "I love you,"
Instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.
If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
So I can let just this one slip away.
For surely there's always tomorrow
To make up for an oversight,
And we always get a second chance
To make everything just right.
There will always be another day
To say "I love you,"
And certainly there's another chance to say
Our "Anything I can do?"
But just in case I might be wrong,
And today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
And I hope we never forget.
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
Young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
You get to hold your loved one tight.
So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
Why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
You'll surely regret the day,
That you didn't take that extra time
For a smile, a hug, or a kiss
And you were too busy to grant someone,
What turned out to be their one last wish.
So hold your loved ones close today,
And whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
And that you'll always hold them dear
Take time to say "I'm sorry,"
"Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay."
And if tomorrow never comes,
You'll have no regrets about today.
Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
For Friday
Tribute For This Weekend
Candles will be lit as usual on Sunday for Monday
I would like to take this opportunity to thank everyone for all the candles, tributes and photographs they have taken the time to leave on Christopher’s Website they are very much appreciated I read every single one.
I Love And Miss Him So Much.
Thanks again Angela X
Love is like a butterfly;
It goes where it pleases
And pleases wherever it goes.
The best and most beautiful
Things in the world cannot
Be seen or even touched.
They must be felt with the heart
The Watcher
You always leaned to watch for us
Anxious if we were late,
In winter by the window,
In summer by the gate.
And though we mocked you tenderly
Who had such foolish care,
The long way home would seem more safe,
Because you waited there.
Your thoughts were all so full of us,
You never could forget,
And so I think that where you are
You must be watching yet.
Waiting ‘til we come home to you
Anxious if we are late
Watching from Heaven’s window
Leaning from Heaven’s gate.
To Those Whom I Love and Those Who Love Me
When I am gone, release me, let me go
I have so many things to see and do
You must not tie yourself to me with tears
Be happy that I have had so many years
I gave you my love, you can only guess
How much you gave me in happiness
I think you for the love each have shown
But now it is time I traveled on alone
So grieve a while for me, if grieve you must
Then let your grief be comforted by trust
It is only for a while that we must part
So bless the memories in your heart
I will not be far away, for life goes on
So if you need me, call and I will come
Though you can not see or touch me,
I will be near and if you listen with your heart,
You will hear all of my love around you
Soft and clear then, when you must come this way alone I will greet you with a smile and a
"Welcome Home"
Friends Are Like Angels,
Who brighten our days.
In all kinds of wonderful,
Magical ways.
Their thoughtfulness comes,
As a gift from above.
And we feel we're surrounded,
By warm, caring love.
Like upside-down rainbows,
Their smiles bring the sun.
And they fill ho-hum moments,
With laughter and fun.
Friends are like angels,
Without any wings.
Blessing our lives,
With the most precious thing
Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
For Friday
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love always lianne xxxx
Tribute Is For This Weekend
Candles Will Be Lit Again
As Usual On Sunday For Monday
MESSAGE FOR MY FAMILY FROM HEAVEN
To My Dearest Family,
Some things I'd like to say.
But first of all, to let you know,
That I arrived okay.
I'm writing this from heaven.
Here I dwell with God above.
Here, there's no more tears of sadness;
Here is just eternal love.
Please do not be unhappy
Just because I'm out of sight.
Remember that I am with you
Every morning, noon and night.
That day I had to leave you
When my life on earth was through.
God picked me up and hugged me
And He said, "I welcome you.
It's good to have you back again,
You were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family,
They'll be here later on.
There's so much that we have to do,
To help our mortal man."
God gave me a list of things,
That he wished for me to do.
And foremost on the list,
Was to watch and care for you.
And when you lie in bed at night
The day's chores put to flight.
God and I are closest to you....
In the middle of the night.
When you think of my life on earth,
And all those loving years.
Because you are only human,
They are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry:
It does relieve the pain.
Remember there would be no flowers,
Unless there was some rain.
I wish that I could tell you
All that God has planned.
If I were to tell you,
You wouldn't understand.
But one thing is for certain,
Though my life on earth is o'er.
I'm closer to you now,
Than I ever was before.
There are many rocky roads
Ahead of you and many hills to climb;
But together we can do it
By taking one day at a time.
It was always my philosophy
And I'd like it for you too;
That as you give unto the world,
The world will give to you.
If you can help somebody
Who's in sorrow and pain;
Then you can say to God at night......
"My day was not in vain."
And now I am contented....
That my life was worthwhile.
Knowing as I passed along the way
I made somebody smile.
So if you meet somebody
Who is sad and feeling low;
Just lend a hand to pick him up,
As on your way you go.
When you're walking down the street
And you've got Me on your mind;
I'm walking in your footsteps
Only half a step behind.
And when it's time for you to go....
From that body to be free.
Remember you're not going.....
You're coming here to Me.
MISS ME..... BUT LET ME GO
We've known lots of pleasure,
At times endured pain,,
We've lived in the sunshine,
And walked in the rain. ,
But now we're separated .
And for a time apart,,
But I am not alone- ,
You're forever in my heart.,
Death always seems so sudden, ,
And it is always sure,,
But what is often forgotten-,
It is not without a cure.,
There may be times you miss me, ,
I sort of hope you do,,
But smile when you think of me,,
For I'll be waiting here for you.
Now there's many things for you to do,,
And lots of ways to grow,,
So get busy, be happy, and live your life,,
Miss me, but let me go.
MY FRIEND I CARE
Don’t tell me that you understand.
Don’t tell me that you know.
Don’t tell me that I will survive,
How I will surely grow.
Don’t come at me with answers
That can only come from me.
Don’t tell me how my grief will pass,
That I will soon be free.
Accept me in my ups and downs.
I need someone to share.
Just hold my hand and let me cry
And say, “My friend, I care"
Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
FOR FRIDAY
This Tribute Is For This Weekend
Candles Will Be Lit Again As Usual On Sunday For Monday
Message from Heaven
I still hear the songs
I still see the lights
I still feel your love
I still share your hopes
And all of your cares
I'll even remind you
To please say your prayers
I just want to tell you
You still make me proud
You stand head and shoulders
Above the crowd
Keep trying each moment
To stay in his grace
I came here before you
To help set your place
You don't have to be
Perfect all of the time
He forgives you the slip
If you continue to climb
To my family and friends
Please be thankful today
I'm still close beside you
In a new special way
As I am now beside Jesus
In the heaven’s above
Please take care of each other
I send you my love
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"Angel"
Tear drops, slow and steady,
The pain so real and true,
God took another angel,
And that angel, dear, was you.
Memories and little prayers,
We all are mourning you,
But we’ll celebrate the short life you led;
We will never forget you.
I know God will look after you,
Now you are truly alive,
Your spirit soars beyond the moon,
Your legacy will survive.
You’re beautiful, you’re endless,
Now stretch your wings and fly,
We love you so, I love you so,
But now we say goodbye.
Close your pretty eyes,
No more tears, just go and rest,
Let your soul lie peacefully,
We know you did your best.
It was your time, so as we cry,
Go forward that extra mile,
You did what you were sent to do,
You made everybody smile.
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“The Best”
God saw you getting tired
And a cure was not to be.
So He put His arms around you
And He whispered “Come to Me”
With tearful eyes we watched you.
We watched you fade away.
Although we loved you dearly,
We could not make you stay.
A golden heart stopped beating,
Hard-working hands at rest.
God broke our hearts to prove to us,
He chose to take the best.
It’s lonesome here without you
We miss you more each day.
Life doesn’t seem the same
Since you have gone away.
When days are sad and lonely
And everything goes wrong,
We seem to hear you whisper
“Cheer Up and Carry On”
Each time we see your picture
You seem to smile and say,
“Don’t cry, I’m in God’s hands,
We’ll meet again someday!”
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The moment that you died
Our hearts were torn in two,
One side filled with memories,
The other died with you.
We often lie awake at night,
When the world is fast asleep,
And take a walk down memory lane,
With tears upon our cheeks.
Remembering you is easy,
We do it everyday,
But missing you is heartache
That never goes away.
It broke our hearts to lose you,
But you did not go alone.
For part of us went with you,
The day God called you home.
We miss you in so many ways,
We miss the things you used to say,
And when old times we do recall,
It’s then we miss you most of all.
We miss you now, our hearts are sore,
As time goes by we miss you more,
Your loving smile, your gentle face,
No one can fill your vacant place.
Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
For Friday
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