| Location | Kettering |
| Age | 0 |
| Date of Birth | 7/2008 |
| Date of Death | 7/2008 |
| Visitors | 4,405 since 15/08/2008 |
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When we found out i was pregnant we were so excited we had been trying a while. We made so many
plans & we had his room done by april. We were just too excited ,so we spent the next few mounths
filling his draws and finding toys that mached his room. Every thing was just so perfect.
All through june my ankles,hands and face were swelling, but was told i was fine and not to worry as
it`s because of the weather and this happens when your pregnant. They got bigger and bigger and on
2nd July i decided to phone the hospital. They told me to come in so i could be monitored .
Baby james was fine & kicking away. He really didn't think much to being monitored. On Friday 4th i
went to see my consultant because i had a bad back & broken cocsix. They were thinking of bringing
him early because of this and at that appointment they found a small trace of protien in my urine. I
also had a very slight constant headache so they thought with my swelling and other symptons they
would keep me in with suspected pre-eclampsia. When i got to the ward my blood pressure was high and
my urine still had a trace but baby james was fine.
As the day went on it all went back to normal and they said i could go home but come back twice a
week for check ups. Then on sun the 6th about 9pm i thought i was in the early stages of labour this
being my 1st so went to bed because it was not too bad and felt abit like period pains. I woke up at
4:15am with the worst pain and was being very sick.
We arrived at hospital at 5am and i was constantly in an awfull lot of pain. After checking for
Baby James` heartbeat they could not find one, so they rang for a doctor and bought in a scan
machine so we started to panic. The doctor did not say alot and he wanted to get a second opinion,
they then told us our baby had died and i screamed and told him he was lying and he had to keep
checking but he would'nt. They moved us to another room because they needed to do tests and i still
didn't belive them, so they got a consultant to do another scan to confirm it.
I still belived he would be fine i could still feel him moving ,but we now know it was just my
waters.
My mum and dad arrived to support me and my husband. I was in natural labour but there was no
pattern to the contractions, just constant pain. As the day progressed i got alot worse, i was very
poorly so they broke my waters and were expecting to see blood from an abruption but it was fine so
they still did not know why i was so poorly.
It was very strange, i still belived our baby was fine.
It was a long day lots of crying and fear how could we have our baby and not take him home. I
carried on deteriorating so they helped me along with my labour, Then the pain really was unbearable
they gave me an epidural and i had lost all my colour they started to worry.i was in and out of
consciousness and had 15 consultants,midwives and doctors who were trying to help.
By 7pm my blood pressure had dropped to 66/32 and they couldnt work out why. At 8pm baby James was
born asleep and taken out of the room to be cleaned up. Shortly after, the placenter came out
quickly followed by 4litres / 70% of my blood. At that point the consultants said that they now knew
why i had been so ill, i had had a concealed abruption. Very quickly i started to recover as they
gave me 4 blood transfusions and other fluids.
1 hour later a mid wife was stood in the middle of the room with our sleeping baby i was so scared
of my feelings. I held him and have never felt so proud in all my life hes just like his daddy so we
named him after him. We had a mixture of feelings, sad, happy & scared all at the same time. Later
on that night i took another short turn for the worse so they converted the room into a high
depenency unit just for us and had a midwife stay in the same room to make sure that my health didnt
take another turn for the worse. I had tubes and wires comming out of me so that they could closly
monitor me.
We slept with him in between us all night but didnt get more than 30mins sleep as we had the most
beautiful baby boy between us.
We had the hole next day with him and our famlies. In the morning we gave him a wash and changed his
clothes. Later on that day he had his blessing, got his foot and hand prints done and spent the best
time of my life with him.
We have over 300 photos of him (proud mummy and daddy) and saying good bye to him was the hardest
thing we have ever had to do but we couldn't keep him with us foever like we had longed to do.
Everything feels so wrong with out him and we miss him so much how could this happen. We will always
love our little prince and cherish the time we spent with him.
This Tribute Is For This Weekend
Candles will be lit as usual on Sunday for Monday
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An angel in the book of life
Wrote down our baby’s birth
She whispered as she closed the book
"Too beautiful for earth."
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You were a gift sent straight from Heaven.
Given to us from God above.
We didn't know how much you would teach us
About the meaning of true love...
For true love sometimes means letting go
Of someone precious and dear.
That is what we were forced to do...
Although we wanted to keep you here!!!
However, this is quite a selfish wish.
One we know we should ignore...
But, sweet loved one, we truly do believe
That God must have needed you more...
Perhaps to be an Angel now,
Full of wisdom and love...
Watching over those of us who love you
From the shining stars above.
We miss you more than you can know.
You will never be replaced...
In our hearts and memories forever,
Will be your sweet and innocent sleeping face.
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If Heaven Had A Phone
I cannot dial your number,
I can't get through to you,
I called the operator,
She did all that she could do.
There is no code for heaven,
I cannot place the call,
No numbers left to call,
I reckon I've tried them all.
If heaven had a phone,
I'd ring you every day,
If heaven had a phone,
There's things I want to say.
To tell you that I love you,
And miss you every day,
How much I prayed to god,
That he could let you stay.
If heaven had a phone,
I'd ring you every day,
If heaven had a phone,
I'd hear your voice, know you're okay,
I just want to speak to heaven,
Please do you have a direct line,
Operator says no number,
But your loved one is doing fine.
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God looked around his garden
And found an empty place
He then looked down upon this earth
And saw your tired face
He put his arms around you
And lifted you to rest
God’s garden must be beautiful
He always takes the best
He knew that you were suffering
He knew you were in pain
He knew that you would never
Get well on earth again
He saw that the road was getting rough
And the hills are hard to climb
So he closed your weary eyelids
And whispered, “Peace be thine”
It broke our hearts to lose you
But you didn’t go alone
For part of us went with you
The day God called you home
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Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
For Friday
This Tribute Is For This Weekend
Candles Will Be Lit Again As Usual For Monday
LITTLE ANGELS
When God calls little children
To dwell with Him above,
We mortals sometimes question
The wisdom of His love.
For no heartache compares
With the death of one small child
Who does so much to make our world
Seem wonderful and mild.
Perhaps God tires of calling
The aged to His fold.
So He picks a rosebud
Before it can grow old.
God knows how much we need them
And so He takes but few
To make the land of heaven
More beautiful to view.
Believing this is difficult,
Still somehow we must try.
The saddest word that mankind knows
Will always be 'goodbye'.
So when a little child departs,
We who are left behind
Must realise God loves children
Angels are hard to find.
If roses grow in heaven,
Lord Please pick one for me.
Place it in my Loved ones hand
And tell them it's from me.
Tell them that I love them
And when they turn to smile,
Place a kiss upon their cheek
And hold them for a while.
Remembering them is easy,
I do it every day.
But there's an ache within my heart
That will never go away.
I looked towards the clouds today
And for a moment saw your face.
I wondered just where you have gone
With hope it's a better place.
Did you show yourself to me today,
To tell me you're all right?
Or was it just a daydream
Playing tricks upon my sight?
We will always feel the void inside
Because you are not here.
But each new thought you send our way
Lets us know you're near.
So until our journey nears its end
And we hear the angels sing,
We'll face each new day as it comes
And live off the love you bring.
If tears could build a stairway,
And memories were a lane,
We would walk right up to heaven
And bring you back again.
Our hearts still ache in sadness
And secret tears still flow.
What it meant to lose you
No one can ever know.
But now we know you want us
To mourn for you no more.
To remember all the happy times,
Life still has much in store.
Since you'll never be forgotten,
We pledge to you today:
A hallowed place within our hearts
Is where you'll always stay.
Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
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It broke our hearts to lose you
But you did not go alone.
For part of us went with you
The day God took you home.
Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
GOODNIGHT AND GOD BLESS
17TH JANUARY 2009
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As long as I can dream,
As long as I can think,
As long I have memory...
I will love you
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As long as I have eyes to see
and ears to hear
and lips to speak...
I will love you.
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As long as I have a heart to feel,
a soul stirring with in,
An imagination to hold you...
I will love you.
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As long as there is time,
As long there is love,
As long as I have a breath
to speak your name...
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Because I love you more than anything...
In all the world.
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love Jude.x
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16TH JANUARY 2009
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This Tribute Is For This Weekend
Candles Will Be Lit On Sunday Night As Usual
Everyone Have A Good Weekend
To My Dearest Family, Some Things I'd Like To Say.
But first of all, to let you know,
That I arrived okay.
I'm writing this from heaven.
Here I dwell with God above.
Here, there's no more tears of sadness;
Here is just eternal love.
Please do not be unhappy
Just because I'm out of sight.
Remember that I am with you every
Morning, Noon and Night.
That day I had to leave you
When my life on earth was through.
God picked me up and hugged me
And He said, "I welcome you.
It's good to have you back again,
You were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family,
They'll be here later on.
There's so much that we have to do,
To help our mortal man."
God gave me a list of things,
That he wished for me to do.
And foremost on the list,
Was to watch and care for you.
And when you lie in bed at night
The day's chores put to flight.
God and I are closest to you....
In the middle of the night.
When you think of my life on earth,
And all those loving years.
Because you are only human,
They are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry:
It does relieve the pain.
Remember there would be no flowers,
Unless there was some rain.
I wish that I could tell you
All that God has planned.
If I were to tell you,
You wouldn't understand.
But one thing is for certain,
Though my life on earth is o'er.
I'm closer to you now,
Than I ever was before.
There are many rocky roads ahead of you
And many hills to climb;
But together we can do it
By taking one day at a time.
It was always my philosophy
And I'd like it for you too;
That as you give unto the world,
The world will give to you.
If you can help somebody
Who's in sorrow and pain;
Then you can say to God at night......
"My day was not in vain."
And now I am contented....
My life was worthwhile.
Knowing as I passed along the way
I made somebody smile.
So if you meet somebody
Who is sad and feeling low;
Just lend a hand to pick him up,
As on your way you go.
When you're walking down the street
And you've got Me on your mind;
I'm walking in your footsteps
Only half a step behind.
And when it's time for you to go....
From that body to be free.
Remember you're not going.....
You're coming here to Me.
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The moment that you died,
My heart split in two,
The one side filled with memories,
The other died with you.
I often lay awake at night,
When the world is fast asleep,
And take a walk down memory lane,
With tears upon my cheeks.
Remembering you is easy,
I do it every day,
But missing you is a heartache,
That never goes away.
I hold you tightly within my heart,
And there you will remain,
Life has gone on without you,
But it never will be the same.
For those who still have their LOVED ONES,
Treat them with tender care,
You will never know the emptiness,
As when you turn and they’re not there.
Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
Night Night ~**xXx**~
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God saw you getting tired
And a cure was not to be.
So he put his arms around you,
And whispered "Come to Me".
With tearful eyes we watched you,
We watched you fade away.
Although we loved you dearly,
We could not make you stay.
A golden heart stopped beating,
Hard working hands now rest.
God broke our hearts to prove to us
He only takes the best.
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Life is but a stopping place,
A pause in what's to be,
A resting place along the road,
To sweet eternity.
We all have different journeys,
Different paths along the way,
We are all meant to learn some things,
But never meant to stay.
Our destination is a place,
Far greater than we know,
For some the journey's quicker,
For some the journey's slow.
But when the journey finally ends,
We'll claim a great reward,
And find an everlasting peace,
Together with the Lord.
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Little did we know that morning
God was going to call your name.
In life we loved you dearly,
In death we do the same.
It broke our hearts to lose you,
But you did not go alone.
For part of us went with you,
The day God called you home.
You left us peaceful memories,
Your love is still our guide.
And though we cannot see you,
You are always by our side.
Our family chain is broken
And nothing seems the same.
But as God calls us one by one,
The chain will link again.
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Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
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